Our new dog!

I'm not saying a word

I am not going to jinx myself this time and say that I love my job.
Or that I love the building.
Or that the people are really nice.

Or that there is fresh flowers every Monday at my desk.
That architecture can be fun and interesting and that I can learn anything.
I have mostly worked for CPA's, escrow offices and mortgage companies. I never would have applied at an architectural firm. I dont know anything about that kind of thing. But I am an excellent support staff person.
Working for temp agencies has given me the opportunity to build my self confidence in my skills, and meet a lot of really neat people.
But I am not going to say anything because I don't want to jinx it...

He really does hate me

good thing I work in an architectural firm with lots of really good smelling rich men!
good thing I always have lots of invitations for dates.
good thing I know when it is time to start saying yes again...

good thing I did not cry this time...

He really does hate me.

I am such an idiot. No I am not. He has always been giving me the "Come here, go away" routine...I never know which dance we are doing. If I don't write, he says I am giving HIM the could shoulder...

I take pictures with this

It is really old, but it was cheap on Ebay and I am all about saving money!! It makes me feel good. I don't care if all the other mommies and daddies have their shiny fancy new digital cameras. We both get pictures.

Our house is a very, very fine house...

or at least it used to be.We ended up in the neighborhood on our way somewhere else and wanted to see it.
This is one of the places I used to live. It had a great laundry room with lots of shelves, a fountain and pond with fish, a real wood play house with glass windows, four bedrooms, two master baths plus two full baths, a formal living room with a huge fire place and bay window, a family room, cobalt blue tile kitchen counters, a pantry, a small office space in the kitchen, a full office with lots of shelves and glass doors, decking on two sides of the house, six foot wood privacy fence, underground sprinklers with a timer...what else? Two car garage with lots of storage, I had my weights and room to dance...I took tap, jazz and ballet lessons from 1st grade to my first year in college, I miss it.

I was buying it from my dad (he bought it so to "help me out") then he started abusing my kids...it wasn't worth the price of his freakin' behavior problems. He did the same to me and my brother and has over the years still to my kids. He has a furious temper and some sexual problems...Some things never change...

The Engagement Party

Today we were supposed to go to an engagement party for a friend of mine. BBq in a local park - bring the kids- my perfect scene!The older two girls got sick and couldn't go. So just the twins and I went. We left late, then got lost. I always take the scenic route everywhere I go!! We never did find the right party. It was a huge park and there were lots of birthdays, reunions, and even a wedding but we never found our friends.We did however have a really nice time anyway. Surprisingly. I am not one to stop and smell the flowers, but check these pictures out.

dancing in the park

We walked around this park for nearly an hour looking for our friends. It had a paved path that made a large loop around the outside and a few trails through the middle. They found this big "thing" and of course it had to be climbed on. Anyone can tell me what it is?? The best guess gets a prize!! There was also live music so they danced a little, too. On top of this statue thing of course!!

wibble wobble, wibble wobble to and fro

We found some ducks and another person there gave the kids some bread. I love the pictures of my twins together and it was a rare treat to be and see just the two of them. We usually travel in a group and they rarely interact with just each other or just them and me.
I think this was supposed to be the "wading pond" and we had brought our swim gear just in case but it was green and thick and smelled bad. My son points way out in the middle and says, "mom, there is a fish!" I did not blurt out what I was thinking, which was, "Is it floating?"

THE BIG RACE!!

I have not had so much fun in I don't know how long! It was so exciting. I think instead of deby race it should be called demolition derby. The cars never flipped over, but the boys flew out of them, faces slid across pavement, cars crashed, they flipped off the starting ramp...the fun went on and on!! And this was 6-10 yr old boys. Some of them quit and didn't even want to race any more, but my son never gave up. His first time up he flipped off the ramp!!! There is a picture of him running into the side and what it dosnt show is him and his car hanging off the edge. I was terrified. Of what? broken bones and blood, my mom is the nurse and I am the accountant - there is a reason for that I CAN'T STAND THE SIGHT OF BLOOD OR ANYONE IN PAIN. Especially my children. But I held my breath and didn't move (I cant treat him like a baby in front of the guys ) and the other dads were there to pull him down and tighten his bolts and nobody freaked out (they're guys - the more ferocious the race the better, right?!) And it truly was no big deal. I had asked him in the car on the drive there, "Son, are you afraid?" He responded, "Of what Mommy?" "Nothing" I lied. So after the failed first attempt he sat down by me for a minute, had a drink of water and caught his breath. I asked if he was going back in and he said YES! ok, not quite that boldy but by the time the 7 races were over and he watched boys drop out like flys and he won 3 of seven races and ate two big plates of food he said it was a good time all in all!!

the race is on and here comes pride in the back stretch...

The groupies

sister
sister
friend

Brandy Elizabeth could only watch the races...

Pre-funcion on the monkey bars

"Of course I won't stick out my tongue, Mommy"

Teamwork

Power tools!!

This week we paint, next weekend is the BBQ and the BIG RACE

We all worked real hard

My son was totally into this!

We had so much fun!

And people in hell want ice water

All I really wanted was a peaceful life.

Tonight we ended up with a dog at our house. My daughter comes back from the park saying the owner of this dog said it would be euphanized and they did not want it. This child is a dog magnet. Ever since she was about 8 we have had a nearly constant stream of "stray" dogs show up. I overheard her say once to a friend, "I had to chase this dog two blocks!"

She carries this dog home to show me and since the kids have been working and saved $158 of the $200 to pay for the pet deposit, I thought we might be able to keep it. It was such a cute little girl about six months old, black with some white spots. The big brown eyes. It had flea bites all over it and the gums were bad. It was head shy and obviously neglected and abused. We went to talk to the landlord and they said it was a pitbull and we could not keep it. So I called the police and they did not want to come get it tonight but I told them the kids babysit themselves and I did not want the dog here when I left for work in the morning.

In the couple of hours that passed that we had the dog it already started growling and acting weird. I did not trust it. My daughter cried and cried and I told her she was doing the right thing and was saving it's life by having the police take it. That she can use the money to pick a dog she can feel safe with and pick out herself.

Well after all the tears and one pee-pee on the floor and the trip and fall of two skined knees and a possible sprained ankle from walking the dog in the dark and tripping over little sister who would not get out of the way, I think I am finally off to bed...morning comes way to early at my house...

Thank God for antidepressants

Those of you that know me, know that I have already had one child that was murdered.
Today I nearly thought I was going to lose another.
I got a call at work that my 14 yr old teenage daughter
let me start again
I call home and my 11 yr old daughter told me that the manager of our apt complex, who is also the father of the boy my daughter has been forbidden to see because they have been sneaking in the middle of the night to meet, well the manager told my 11 year old to lock the doors and not let anyone in because said boy has just left the house with a loaded rifle. So my 11 yr old and the six year old twins are home alone since said teenage daughter upon hearing this, runs out of the house to help find the boy...
The father had already called the police who found them at the park. The boy was taken into custody and taken somewhere...? I called the police and they said he is somewhere he can get help. I said I don't freakin' care about him , it is my teenage daughter I am worried about!!! Tell me what happened!!!!
I had already shipped her out of town last week to grandma's but she called crying she wanted to come home, but that she would stay at a friends so she was not around said boy, but instead she continued to sneak out at night and was caught by boys father (my apt manager) and boy got in trouble with dad. I found this out today.
Daughter is at friends house till I can figure out where to send her next. She is putting too many people in danger...Herself first. I am afraid he will come looking for her again. I want to leave.
There is nothing so scarry as a man with nothing to lose.

Where am I from?

I have printed this out in order to work on it. It has been weeks and I really can't bring much to my mind from back then. I think it is beautiful when finished. I just can't seem to get started!

For the WHERE I'M FROM Format: Click the READ MORE link below:
I am from _______ (specific ordinary item), from _______ (product name) and _______.
I am from the _______ (home description... adjective, adjective, sensory detail).
I am from the _______ (plant, flower, natural item), the _______ (plant, flower, natural detail)
I am from _______ (family tradition) and _______ (family trait), from _______ (name of family member) and _______ (another family name) and _______ (family name).
I am from the _______ (description of family tendency) and _______ (another one).
From _______ (something you were told as a child) and _______ (another).
I am from (representation of religion, or lack of it). Further description.
I'm from _______ (place of birth and family ancestry), _______ (two food items representing your family).
From the _______ (specific family story about a specific person and detail), the _______ (another detail, and the _______ (another detail about another family member).
I am from _______ (location of family pictures, mementos, archives and several more lines indicating their worth).

Mamma's got a brand new gig...Yes again

Started another "new job" today. Temping has its pluses but I am sure looking forward to just staying at one job for a while. Like the next 30 years. But I am learning so much going from job to job. Mostly about people. Some seem nice, but are not. Some are not nice and arn't afraid to show it. That I can deal with. The building is gorgeous, it was built in Nov and they have state of the art up to the minute everything!! I even have my own bathroom!!! That for me, is the most exciting thing right now!!! I hate public bathrooms!!!! I don't like sharing a bathroom with my kids! Actually I think the kids' bathroom is worse than public. No, that's not true but it sounded funny!! so keep your fingers crossed, say your prayers, pray to Alah or anyone you can think of that this mama gets a permanent full time gig!