"Do you know why I pulled you over, Ma'm?"

I hate being called "Ma'm". The handsome young officer with the gold wedding band wanted to know, "Do you know why I pulled you over, Ma'm?"

Let's go back 12-14 months...

My head lights are out on my car. My running lights work, and the brights work but only when I hold the switch on the turn signal pulled towards me, which makes it very hard to put on my make-up and talk on my cell phone, let alone drink my coffee on the way to work.

So I totally quite driving at night; for the most part. Especially after I got a ticket last sprint for not having my 11 year old in a seat belt and that ticket was for about $150. Now that ticket I did not pay. I tried twice to attend the seatbelt diversion class but got the wrong building on the wrong night both times. So my court date came and went and I still didn't have the money to actually pay the ticket so my license was suspended. Along the line some where my insurance also expired and who has the money for that when there are so many mouths to feed and you can barely pay the rent?!

Last year for Christmas my mother gave me a new switch to fix the headlights cuz some freakin' mechanic (me and mechanics are a whole different story and it makes me tear up at how much money they have stolen from me in the name of new brakes and various other repairs they insist I need and how can I say no when I drive with kids in the car??) so this mechanic said it was a switch, well it wasn't so almost a year later I have almost never driven at night. See without a license or insurance I dont want to get pulled over!! I drive to work and I drive home.

So this kid from work says he will fix my headlights for free for me. He's going to hard connect it or something and just put in a toggle switch to run the headlights. I am trhilled!! So, today, we trade cars. I am driving his sweet little Acura with the jammin' stereo and the skull head stick shift and a V-6 with 2400 valves or something. I am at the corner to my apt. The light is green. I turn on my turn signal, it is dark, but his car has headlights that work!! I see a young man crossing against the light so I safely wait till he is half way across the street and finish my turn.

RED AND BLUE FLASHING IN MY REAR VIEW MIRROR.

There is a new law I recently read about that drivers now are supposed to wait till the pedestrain is completely all the way across the street to finish their turn.

fuck.

one year that i have outrun the law. till tonight.

i dig and dig through this boys car and can't find the proof of insurance.

the officer is not impressed with the skull head stick shift.

the computers are jammed and he can't verify my license. So he asks me if it is current.
I burst into tears, cuz i know that it's not and that i can't tell a lie and the last 38 years of heart ache and fighting every single day to not just jump off a bridge wells to the surface.

he is so cute, too. i mean really hot, tall, brown hair, large hands...

So now on top of all my other bills that I can't pay, I get ticket for over $1600. But he says he really cut me break. Thanks baby.