Yes of course I will, that is why it makes me so mad at myself that I hate being a mom ALL THE TIME.
For example: last night I missed a really great football party that was being sponsored by one of our vendors at a really neat new club in town, all expenses paid, because my son got hurt at daycare...how selfish of me. Talk about feeling a lot of guilt for being mad that I have to take care of him instead of earting free food and drinking free beer with a bunch of really cool people!
And tonight there is another get together, free for me!, and I have to leave them at dacyare late...
Will I really miss these little buggers when they grow up and move out? Yes. Yes. Yes. And I will be old and alone and sad.
My littlest princess last night came up to me with a glass of water and said, "Mama!! Listen to me swallow!" She thought that was about the coolest thing ever, and it made me smile deep into my heart to see her joy discovering her little world. I am really going to miss these little buggers. I just wish I could find a way to enjoy them more before they grow up and move away...
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Monday, December 11, 2006
the best time of the year? Bahumbug!
this article is good, too: http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/stress/MH00030
My relationships are in the shitter. I am a lousy mom most of the time, cranky, depressed, tired. I am no fun at all to be around. I isolate myself.
Having the kids in sports really helped to get me out of the house and around other adults. I enjoyed the activity. Right now the weather freakin' sucks. My job is not challenging, it is very boring, I don't feel uselful at all. Nearly everyone has been fired.
I should be thankful I have a job, a nice place to live, a car that is paid for...healthy family, the kids get good grades and don't get into any trouble. I have everything I have ever wanted (except to be worshipped and adored like a godess!) but why do I feel like crying all the time? Am I an ungrateful slob?
My relationships are in the shitter. I am a lousy mom most of the time, cranky, depressed, tired. I am no fun at all to be around. I isolate myself.
Having the kids in sports really helped to get me out of the house and around other adults. I enjoyed the activity. Right now the weather freakin' sucks. My job is not challenging, it is very boring, I don't feel uselful at all. Nearly everyone has been fired.
I should be thankful I have a job, a nice place to live, a car that is paid for...healthy family, the kids get good grades and don't get into any trouble. I have everything I have ever wanted (except to be worshipped and adored like a godess!) but why do I feel like crying all the time? Am I an ungrateful slob?
Friday, December 08, 2006
where we met
May 7, 2003.
From the very first time I saw him, I thought he was the most handsome man in the world.
This had to be fate, there is no other way we would have ever met.
I was able to watch him every day for eight months, close up.
(updated 5/9/2018- the link has changed since the restaurant shut down, but it was a McMennamins on Hall Blvd in Beaverton)
From the very first time I saw him, I thought he was the most handsome man in the world.
This had to be fate, there is no other way we would have ever met.
I was able to watch him every day for eight months, close up.
(updated 5/9/2018- the link has changed since the restaurant shut down, but it was a McMennamins on Hall Blvd in Beaverton)
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Parties, parties, parties!
The year end celebration is in the works! We are having a Fiesta!
I keep pretty busy running parties. It is fun, but it's not much time to eat, visit or relax. I have been known to fit in lots of dancing tho!! Every time we get a new employee they say, "You're the one that throws the great parties!" It makes me feel good.
I keep pretty busy running parties. It is fun, but it's not much time to eat, visit or relax. I have been known to fit in lots of dancing tho!! Every time we get a new employee they say, "You're the one that throws the great parties!" It makes me feel good.
The most handsome man in the world
I miss my sweetie.
I wish I had a picture of him to show you.
He is gorgeous! Tall, soft curly brown hair, a beautiful smile. He is such a masculine man, always stands out in a crowd. He oozes sex appeal! People always want to be around him.
Men want to be just like him.
Women just want to be near him.
C arefully
H e
R eaches
I nto my
S oul
I wish I had a picture of him to show you.
He is gorgeous! Tall, soft curly brown hair, a beautiful smile. He is such a masculine man, always stands out in a crowd. He oozes sex appeal! People always want to be around him.
Men want to be just like him.
Women just want to be near him.
C arefully
H e
R eaches
I nto my
S oul
Thursday, November 09, 2006
I really like this picture
In fact, I think it turned out so well, that I made an 8x10 copy and hung it inside a 2" wide white matt with a very, very thin black frame. It looks awesome!
I never, ever, ever like pictures of myself. But this dosn't look like me so much that it turned out GREAT!
I never, ever, ever like pictures of myself. But this dosn't look like me so much that it turned out GREAT!
Thursday, November 02, 2006
I was having a pretty good day until
I was having a pretty good day until
Some lane-brain had to mention that I share a birthday with Charles Manson...
I spent my entire life NOT KNOWING THIS!!!!
it was hard enough having another birthday:
I had come to terms with the fact that I am a little bit over 25, and not so young anymore. I will age gracefully, I don't need to fight it like I used to think. It really is better in a lot of ways. See how I can talk myself into these things? But Charlie Manson? It dosn't MEAN anything, of course, right?
I never read the books, or watched the TV shows, I tried to watch the interview with Gerlado Rivera a few yrs back, but the guy FREAKS ME OUT!
Now, Neil Young and I share a birthday, we may celebrate separately this year. It seems like just yesterday I wrote those exact words on my birthday last year...where does the time go, really?
I am looking forward to a really nice weekend with a special friend. Well not the whole weekend, just a little bit of it.
Some lane-brain had to mention that I share a birthday with Charles Manson...
I spent my entire life NOT KNOWING THIS!!!!
it was hard enough having another birthday:
I had come to terms with the fact that I am a little bit over 25, and not so young anymore. I will age gracefully, I don't need to fight it like I used to think. It really is better in a lot of ways. See how I can talk myself into these things? But Charlie Manson? It dosn't MEAN anything, of course, right?
I never read the books, or watched the TV shows, I tried to watch the interview with Gerlado Rivera a few yrs back, but the guy FREAKS ME OUT!
Now, Neil Young and I share a birthday, we may celebrate separately this year. It seems like just yesterday I wrote those exact words on my birthday last year...where does the time go, really?
I am looking forward to a really nice weekend with a special friend. Well not the whole weekend, just a little bit of it.
Friday, October 27, 2006
today I feel like I have the most boring life ever-not even ONE friend on MySpace.com
oh!
mine is landislaura@yahoo.com
mine is landislaura@yahoo.com
Monday, October 23, 2006
Oupa!
What a fun place to go!
The food was fantastic! The atmosphere was a kick off your shoes, get up and dance and have the best time of your life! We couldn't help but clap to the Greek beat of the music as soon as we walked in the door!! And the signing and dancing and belly dancers were to die for! They even have plate throwing! And they teach you some traditional Greek dancing. Highly recommended for food and fun!
Oh yeah, and the women there think I have great breasts, no this is not a lesbian bar. I come walking out of the bathroom and these ladies are talking about my shirt-which is a purple halter with silver glitter strings in between the bosoms (no bra!) and they not only love my shirt but agree I have great boobs! This is a compliment because of course guys are going to stare so that dosn't mean shit, but when women are breathless...that makes me feel GOOD! And one of the ladies I was actually out with, she did get a little friendly with me later, but I think she was just really drunk.
ALSO! I never mentioned that at my class reunion I got voted best breasts.
But, thinking of my breasts makes me think of the best place in the world, my truly most favorite place to be...with a tall dark handsome man on his patio bbq'ing...he is such a freakin' hot hunk of a man!! I adore him!
The food was fantastic! The atmosphere was a kick off your shoes, get up and dance and have the best time of your life! We couldn't help but clap to the Greek beat of the music as soon as we walked in the door!! And the signing and dancing and belly dancers were to die for! They even have plate throwing! And they teach you some traditional Greek dancing. Highly recommended for food and fun!
Oh yeah, and the women there think I have great breasts, no this is not a lesbian bar. I come walking out of the bathroom and these ladies are talking about my shirt-which is a purple halter with silver glitter strings in between the bosoms (no bra!) and they not only love my shirt but agree I have great boobs! This is a compliment because of course guys are going to stare so that dosn't mean shit, but when women are breathless...that makes me feel GOOD! And one of the ladies I was actually out with, she did get a little friendly with me later, but I think she was just really drunk.
ALSO! I never mentioned that at my class reunion I got voted best breasts.
But, thinking of my breasts makes me think of the best place in the world, my truly most favorite place to be...with a tall dark handsome man on his patio bbq'ing...he is such a freakin' hot hunk of a man!! I adore him!
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
When I was pregnant at 33 with twins and thought 40 was old
I used to say that I would rather be pregnant with twins (my 4th & 5th children) than turn 40. I thought 40 was really old and that pretty much nothing in the world could be worse that being 40!!
I turn 40 next month.
But at least I am not pregnant.
As soon as those little babies were born, I had THAT part of my life put behind me!
Now I just need to find some of my feeble old friends and if we can stay awake late enough, maybe we can hobble down to the nearest swinging joint and cut a rug!
I turn 40 next month.
But at least I am not pregnant.
As soon as those little babies were born, I had THAT part of my life put behind me!
Now I just need to find some of my feeble old friends and if we can stay awake late enough, maybe we can hobble down to the nearest swinging joint and cut a rug!
Monday, October 16, 2006
I am so amazed that this beautiful child is mine!
Just another snap-shot from the party at The Pittock Mansion.
Monday, October 09, 2006
Homecoming was so fun!
I did not hit this deer, I just ran over it's little ears...
We circled back around a couple of times to get a picture, because the twins were asleep and we KNEW they would want to see it. We had nearly hit a herd of elk earlier in the evening. We did see another car later down the road that had hit an elk. And we missed hitting some deer a few other times.
My 12 yr old says to me, "we are sooo poor, if this is what we do on Fri nights after homecoming."
My daughter was one of the princesses.
I was so proud of her!
Don't touch my hair!
We circled back around a couple of times to get a picture, because the twins were asleep and we KNEW they would want to see it. We had nearly hit a herd of elk earlier in the evening. We did see another car later down the road that had hit an elk. And we missed hitting some deer a few other times.
My 12 yr old says to me, "we are sooo poor, if this is what we do on Fri nights after homecoming."
My daughter was one of the princesses.
I was so proud of her!
Don't touch my hair!
Friday, October 06, 2006
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Monday, October 02, 2006
much to my chagrin
I have given up on love, fortunately there is still SEX!http://www.sexualastrology.com/
http://www.hotscopes.com/Compatibility/Cancer_Scorpio/
http://www.miltonblack.com.au/compatibility/scorpio/cancer.htm
I have been able to remove that silly Libra, although some of my best friends are Libra, my heart-much to my chagrin-belongs elsewhere...
http://www.myjellybean.com/soulmate/scorpiocancer.html
http://www.hotscopes.com/Compatibility/Cancer_Scorpio/
http://www.miltonblack.com.au/compatibility/scorpio/cancer.htm
I have been able to remove that silly Libra, although some of my best friends are Libra, my heart-much to my chagrin-belongs elsewhere...
http://www.myjellybean.com/soulmate/scorpiocancer.html
Friday, September 01, 2006
The first party I threw $15,000
This is Pumpkin Ridge Golf Course, where we held our year end company party last Dec. This was an awesome party, too. It was all decorated with poinsettieas and lights, and we had a band and good food-our parties are all pretty much the same. It is an honor to be able to plan them. I will look for more pictures...
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